Last night I was told by my doctor that I have a mass behind my uterus. It appears to have grown between the ultrasound at the ER last week Monday and my CT scan this past Tuesday. It’s measuring at 6 by 6 by 9 cm. That’s about the size of a medium aspirin bottle, maybe a little longer. They don’t know if it’s attached to my ovaries or to my uterus. It has to come out immediately. Due to my risk factors (Mom being Ovarian cancer survivor, Dad being Ashkanazi Jewish) and due to my elevated CA 125 test, there is a risk of it being malignant. Maybe a 50% chance.
Thou art the Lord who slept upon the pillow.
Thou art the Lord who soothed the furious sea,
What matter beating wind and tossing billow
If only we are in the boat with Thee?
Hold us in quiet through the age-long minute
While Thou art silent and the wind is shrill;
Can the boat sink while Thou, dear Lord, art in it?
Can the heart faint that waiteth on Thy will.
-Amy Carmichael
Mom sent this to me after I called her with the news. I love Amy Carmichael. Her life was so inspiring to me. Mom knows just what I am going through since she’s been there, done that, come through on the other side. This word from Amy Carmichael is a good reminder that I am not alone in this storm. He’s with me. I choose to cling to Him. So glad He’s in the boat with me through this storm.
Mostly I am in shock. I really don’t know what to think or feel. I am blessed by how family and friends have been so wonderful pull around our family and offer help and encouragement. What a blessing they are to me! I am so thankful for all ya’ll. :-)
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